long time no see! i'm working hard every day focusing on myself, but do you ever wonder what i do on my off time?

okay, wow, maybe a little conceited of me, but i really want to talk about what i've been doing! i'll summarize what i've been doing since 2022, talking about some shows i've watched! come with me to explore all the media i've encountered, and all the experiences i've had!

warning: gay?

2022 was a significant year for me, and the new year especially... that was the day i joined nananet! it was the day i decided to establish a partnership with my manager, and the day i decided i was really going to be myself, and eventually show myself instead of using Nyuuko-tan. it was a lot of work to get even this far, but i'm still proud of myself.

before i joined nananet, i just kept sneaking around the staff and using the computers and private booths... they couldn't get rid of me lol. thinking about those days makes me nostalgic, but i'm so happy it's over too... you know, i made Nyuuko-tan, but i didn't even work for nananet at the time? i got hired freelance online to make her and the other mascots but i don't think the staff put two and two together once i started lurking late nights.

anyways! i had my eye on the manager and he clearly mustve noticed me in december :p we started to talk a lot and found out our personality and interests were... the exact same??? i had my eye on him for a while though and i always wanted to get into all the stuff he liked. he just felt... intimidating? like he would judge me for liking less than him, idk LOL

you'll never guess what happened next. (he became my boyfriend hehe)

needless to say we definitely spent every waking moment with each other after that. kind of gay. (i'm not a girl ok don't mind the looks)

i had the bright idea to "use" him to get into all the series that i've always wanted to... poor guy. he has to rewatch SO many shows because of me... but it's ok. i'm just gonna rapidfire huge paragraph summarize all those shows now ok??

the very very first thing was symphogear. why symphogear? i always wanted to! the designs are hot, the voice actresses are amazing, the songs are phenomenal, everyone should watch symphogear. i entered thinking chris would be my favorite, but it ended up being kirika? or hibiki. it's a very close tie. i love lesbians. after that, i have no idea... but it's always been one of his favorites too.

did we rewatch love live together next? does the order even matter, really? the biggest things are pretty series and kamen rider... god, i wish i could relive pretty series for the first time again. i can't explain how much that show turned me into a pure shill. i've been into idol anime for over 10 years, and i thought love live school idol project s2 and the original idolm@ster were peak. i was afraid that pripara would just be a repeat of aikatsu (translation: a very simple slice of life type) BUT IT WASN'T. the humor is perfect, the designs are perfect. the music is perfect. the dynamics between the characters are perfect. i found a character that could top my favorite idol characters. i found MULTIPLE. I grew attached to seiyuus. i wished that every anime could have as much love put into it as pripara. i'm going to definitely rewatch it and write a LENGTHY analysis on it, i need to. i'll never find enough words for how pretty series is this messy perfection that perfectly captures idols at their highest potential.

don't forget i also mentioned kamen rider. can you believe that before i met him, the two kamen riders i had watched were build and drive? but i couldn't get more than 6 episodes into either of them? it's crazy. i always wanted to get into kamen rider, but the time never felt right for me. something about the pacing of those really makes me feel like i can't blame myself LMAO like when i was watching build for the first time, i kept telling him that everything kept moving so fast and i couldn't look away for 5 seconds without missing information. i still feel that way. i thought that once i got more into kamen rider, that feeling would go away, but there's this specific period... i think it's neo-heisei? he's gonna read this and dm me and be like "btw ya those are neo-heisei" anyways from all the shows that i've watched, i have to say that build is peak yaoi. i haven't watched that many though. my favorite is ryuki! and my favorite characters overall are tendou souji and dan kuroto. :-)

other amazing shows we watched together were uma musume, lycoris recoil, revue starlight, just to name a few... and he dragged me into watching what used to be my most hated show ever... (doctor who...) and i came out of it really liking the first 4 seasons, but growing tired of the rest. grrr i wish i could make him watch south park with me but it's so bad in the first few seasons :(

btw i have this strict rating system on myanimelist, where i only rate things i consider a "10" because it's exhausting getting caught up in arbitrary number ratings. but i want to express what i truly think is the BEST. i can remember what i think is good or bad. ratings are silly. but i doubled my amount of series i would rate a 10 watching stuff with him... you can check my MAL here :p im sure im always missing stuff but i have 99% of it right! i remembered to add aikatsu on there finally after years lol

also, confession, i didn't rate revue starlight a 10. i want to SO badly, but it's something you need to watch, and rewatch, and rewatch again just to really fully appreciate how good it is. you have to consume so much media outside of it just to understand what it's trying to say. a lot of it is simple and intuitive, but its roots are SO deep and it's such a perfect apprecation of a type of art that i've never gotten into. i like it, and i like it A LOT, but i feel like i don't deserve it yet... i need to study and experience so much more to truly appreciate what it's trying to say, you know? it's kinda like loona in a way...

lately i got him into isaac cuz i play it so much and he nearly has the same amount of achievements and completion marks as me... not fair... why are people just naturally better at video games and why aren't those people me... he has to entertain all my stupid questions in monster hunter too.

before the end of 2024 i am going to shoot for finishing every heisei-now kamen rider, at least 10 precures, and at least 5 more visual novels. UGHHH why are visual novels so time consuming and attention demanding... i can't focus on them unless i get into bed all cozy and shit. i wish i could be brave enough to stream them. anyways i'm happy. i used to feel so upset that i didn't get into these things sooner so i could talk to him about them, but experiencing everything for the first time with him is sooooo much better...

AND CAN SOMEONE RECOMMEND ME A SITE TO STREAM EROGE... PLS... i want to play rance so bad, and i don't want to stain nyuuko-tan's cute and pure image, i want it to be ME. and i don't wanna do it on discord i want to STREAM RAAHHHHHHHHHHH

also i don't know what name i should use for him... *** is too on the nose...

thanks for reading my gay little gushing, love u all, look forward to the next post pls! i'm probably going to finish the visual novel i'm reading by then, and i REALLY want to talk about my feelings from start to finish. it'll be the first time i do this!

forever all of yours,

- the little words on your screen